On having brighter days

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Whenever the world falls down on you, take time to feel it. And when you’ve had enough, stand. Just stand. Help yourself. Doesn’t matter if it takes you a day or a week or a month. Just please don’t make it too long to the point that you’ll be wasting days. You’ll be wasting your life.
Get up. Live everyday normally. Acknowledge the people who will do everything willingly for you. Don’t look back; go on. Remember that most of the time, good things fall apart for the better things to take place. Believe in it. ❤ You've been here many times before, and almost always, you're happier each outcome. Why wallow now?
Smile. Fake it til you make it. Look for better days. Notice the clouds, the flowers, the birds.. The little things.

The times that we are broken are the times that we should feel stronger every day. The fact that we get up every day, knowing that we're facing a tough battle, is enough to make us strong.
I always underestimate myself when it comes to overcoming these emotions. But now, I am finally aware that somehow, it's not only strength that I have. It's faith.
Faith that things will get better, and I wi be happier. Faith that life will always reward us the sweetest hellos after the hardest goodbyes.

If you're at your lowest point now, chin up. You will make it. I promise. 🙂 Better things will come. Wounds will heal. And years (even months) from now, you will be smiling at yourself, wondering how you made it.

One day, someone will come again. Someone who will put the stars back on your eyes. But for now, love yourself. At the end of the day, that's all you really have 🙂

I am strong.

I am strong.
I know that, many people know that.
I get emotional, but I NEVER let it break me. I hate breaking down. My rule has always been to shrug off negative vibes, to ignore sadness, to not let it overpower me.

But lately, everything’s been too overwhelming. My relationships are okay, my family’s okay, my studies are okay..
But I’m not.

Someone please tell me it’s okay to be broken every once in a while.

I miss the scent that makes my head turn around every time – just because I know he’s there; he’s around.

And the way I would always feel fragile and safe whenever he hugs me.

I miss the breakfast & lunch dates, the occasional weekend hangouts, the after-school time. I miss calling him whenever I want to. I miss the comfortable silences he used to hate, the stories I would hear at the end of a school day.

I even miss fighting with him sometimes. I was confident enough to know that we can talk afterwards; we can fix things easily- it won’t even take a quarter of an hour. Now, things are handled with care. The relationship itself is fragile because of the distance- the thousands of miles between us. 

I am happy with chasing everything I’ve ever dreamt of ever since, but I do miss and long for my person. 

Being 4,500 miles away is making me a reaaal paranoid- being so affected with the littlest things and random girls and everything else. It makes me over-think every single time. It makes me ache for the best days again. 

On the other hand, it makes me appreciate the littlest and the simplest joys- the video calls, the good night and good morning messages, the stories at the end of the day.. Trust, at the end of the day, is the most important thing you will ever get to hold and cherish. I get to value things even more.

I love this city, but I really, really can’t wait to be with you again. I miss you so much.

Why Love Will Never Be Enough

I never really believed in “love is enough to make a relationship work”.

Of course, it’s not. Well, at least for me.

I have been there. A couple of times. Sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, at the end of the day, if you aren’t happy anymore, it just wont work. The trust, loyalty, affection and faith are other essentials of a successful relationship. I am still too young to know about everything, but in my 18 years of existence, I’ve gotten to somehow know about these things because of the people around me and for quite some time, because of my own experience. 

One can never rely on love alone. Loving is easy, it’s the faith and the will to continue on that’s hard to maintain- remember, you have to make a choice EVERY DAY.

I am a firm believer in the package deal of love and trust. You won’t be able to make things work if there’s no trust. You will go nuts every single time. Meanwhile, when you love AND trust, you can still feel the comfort despite being away from each other, despite every fight and despite every misunderstanding.

Are you getting me?

Sometimes, even if you love someone so much, you cant help but hurt them in ways you don’t really want to.. What can you do, it’s possible to suddenly be unhappy about something, and sometimes, to just fall out of love. It’s a cruel world, remember? 

I’ve “fallen in love” before, and as days passed by, my faith in the relationship and my happiness with it were slowly deteriorating. Next thing I knew, I decided to end things because I don’t want to hurt the other person anymore- believe me, it’s more painful to unhappily stay than to painfully let go because you’re not growing together anymore. You’re not happy anymore. You lost the faith and the will to continue and to fight for it everyday.

I will never, ever believe that love is enough. If it was, the world would be a happier place. It wouldn’t be this chaotic. If love was really enough, one cannot know the importance and value of pain- and the greatest feeling once you overcome everything. 

It only takes one person & a few memories to knock anyone down.

We can always be strong and tough. We can go on and on everyday, but there are just some things that are beyond our control. We have our people- the ones who make our lives easier and more.. Liveable.

Can’t believe that I (YES, ME. Ikr?) can actually mean this..

It wouldn’t be my world without you in it.

It may be, but it won’t be the same. It will never be the same.

The past days may have been really challenging for me, but it is definitely making me stronger. than ever.

I realized something important. I already know this, but it is only now that I can fully grasp the meaning of it. 

At the end of the day, the only thing you have is yourself.

When I give, I really give, and many people are aware of that. But oftentimes, I think we all have to stop and think if we’re leaving enough for ourselves. The only way we can cope up and deal with everything is when we have enough self-love, when we know for a fact that we also deserve the good things. 

Another is that I am truly, greatly blessed when it comes to family and friends. They keep me sane. They keep me going everyday. The thing with friends is sometimes, the ones you love the most turn out to be the disappointing ones. But that’s okay, in that way, you can clearly see the people who are willing to do anything for you. There are friends who would drop everything just to check on you, just to see if you can still handle things. And with all the luck in the world, every single time, there are quite a number of people who help me carry my baggages, there are people who are willing to go through shit with me. And for me, that’s the best and I mean the best thing in my life right now. 

Most of all, thank You, Jesus, for absorbing all the pain. I am grateful, and I love You the most.

This time, I will be better. I will be stronger for the people who are leaning on me. And this time, I will also drop everything when the time comes that those people will need me. Anything.. Anything. 

Thank You. Thank you. I am loved. And for that, I am forever grateful. 

Can’t put my thoughts into organized and well-written phrases right now sooo.. Just visit my Tumblr site. Too much feels! Haha.

http://tumblr.com/iamcheskac

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